My Breaking Point

I've spent the last eight years of my life wishing I were thinner, and in that process? I've done nothing but gained weight; more than 100 pounds actually.

Five years ago, my husband lost 110 pounds. I gained 30 that year. Two years ago, I lost 50 pounds. The next two years (after some drastic life changes) I gained 90.

But I've finally hit my breaking point.

Three days after Christmas was when I finally figured out what Rock bottom is. Our whole family went to an indoor playground in my hometown, and my two year old was having the time of her life. She ran from the swings and slides, to the giant foam pit and then to the bouncy houses. Back and fourth, all morning with a huge smile on her face.

I've always said I wanted to be a "Cool" Mom. I wanted to do more than sit on the sidelines, I want to get down and get dirty. I want to climb on the play ground equipment, and play tag. I want to coach soccer and play tether ball. So, I did just that - I tried to join her in the bouncy house.

One problem. As a safety measure, the entry to the bounce house was a flap, but it was attached at the top and at the bottom so that you couldn't fall out if you bounced into it. My two year old climbed through the opening no problem. My 160 pound  husband did the same. When it came to my turn? I got stuck at the waist. My husband pulling from the inside, my mother in law pushing from the out. By the time I made it in, I was too exhausted (and embarrassed) to do anything but take photos.

So here it is, January 11, 2011 and here I sit - fatter than ever. It's time to change my life. I've joined SparkPeople.com to count my calories. My kid sister has started her own journey - already having lost 6 pounds! I'm ready to do this! I need to do this!

So join me on my journey!